Hi! I wanted to do something different and take you with me for a day. I hope you enjoy! I had such a lovely time yesterday.
Sunday 6th, May
6.00 am Hello sunshine!
My always so nice body clock woke me up at 6 am on a Sunday. Funnily the first thing I noticed was that it was really bright inside. Yes, please and thank you to the sun shining this early! But I really hadn’t had enough sleep, so I about forced the sleep to come back. This has been a bit of a problem lately and yeah, maybe it’s the spring and all the daylight it brings with it, but I haven’t been getting enough sleeping hours. At least not those much-needed deep sleep ones. The result is waking up nearly always tired. So happy though to look at the weather forecast and see that it should be warm and sunny for at least the next ten days. That always gives some extra energy for the days.
How is the spring treating you at the moment? I love the feeling you often get at spring time where you start wanting to clear out everything, to make things feel more simple and fresh. I think it has the most to do with the growing amount of day light. Representing some sort of awakening. At least for me, when the weather starts to become warmer and the sun is out more and more, being inside begins to feel kind of suffocating. What I find really helpful at this time of the year in particular, is to make sure I don’t have too much stuff lying around unused.
I finally got around to clearing out my wardrobe this weekend. It’s been a long time coming, let me tell you. I have a really bad habit of not even using my closet but instead putting clothes on straight from the drying rack. And the same clothes keep cycling from there to being used to laundry and back. What it really shows is that the amount of clothes I use compared to the number that I own, is really small.
My life has come to a point where I’ve started to get frustrated and having some sort of anxiety from only the thought of opening my wardrobe. I think it holds such strange energy to it with all the mixed clothing pieces that it makes me unbalanced. It’s something I just want to get away from. So I’m finally taking charge of the situation and clearing it out. With the intention of making it a space that looks and feels like me.
Time has gone by so quickly, I can’t even quite comprehend. It’s already April! Spring is catching up to us and the anticipation is huge. It’s the best feeling to realize and truly enjoy the growing amount of daylight that we have at the moment. To have moments in the evening when you’re looking outside on a sunny day and it’s still so damn bright at eight o’clock that it almost feels like summer.
So there’s some catching up to do, as in a little life update.
I can’t even remember how many times I’ve gone to a doctor in the past two months. Not to mention the hours I’ve spent in the hospital. About three weeks ago, I had a surgery on my ovaries. It went well and I’m all fine now. But it still was a surgery and the recovery, alongside with about ten things, are something I’ve never experienced before. It’s been a rollercoaster, to say the least.
After being on a sick leave for five weeks in December-January, because of a broken wrist, I thought, taking a break from work and having some time to reflect on your life, is kind of a good thing. Even though the time didn’t come from the best of circumstances. At least it ended up having a great timing, so that I had the possibility to start a new year with a renewed view of strength I had on myself.
This time around thought, I’ve had this time off with a mixture of feelings. I was at work only for a month and a half between these sick leaves and it didn’t really feel like I needed any time to take away from the life I was living. But on the other hand, this has been such a different time compared to the broken wrist situation, because it’s been a slow process (even though it’s gone much quicker than I had thought it would) to be able to move and do normal every day things again. I guess it’s a bit different having one hand off the game than recovering from having your stomach cut open.. I have to say I’ve never quite enjoyed walking outside and watching the nature changing as much I do right now.