How are you doing? Have you had a lovely summer so far?
I wanted to post a little life update here on my blog because I’ve been gone for quite a while now. To tell you the truth, I simply just wanted to take some time off from writing. It started to feel like something I had to do instead of something I wanted to do. And this being a hobby for me, it didn’t make any sense to keep doing something that brought unnecessary stress into my life.
Hello everyone. What’s good about your day?
I woke up to a sunny day this morning feeling all energized and motivated. I’ve been doing yoga quite regularly for the last couple of weeks and I can’t even explain how good it leaves my body feeling. Concentrating on breathing has always been a bit “out there” for me, I haven’t really gotten the grasp of it, but I feel like I’m finally getting to a point in my yoga practices that I’m noticing a change. It’s something so powerful and leaves me feeling light and almost like I’m floating in the air. Like I’m part of the air I’m breathing. It’s exhilarating. That is what’s good about my day. I get to make my body move in a way that strengthens me and gives me joy.
Hello everyone! How has your week started?
I had five days off work around this past weekend and maybe for the first time I’ve reached a point where the time off work has really left me recharged and calm. I’m actually quite astonished at how life is and feels at the moment.
Summer has jolt started here in Finland in the past week or two, giving us a surprise heatwave. It was just mere weeks ago when we were still looking at the remaining piles of snow on the ground and wishing with all our might that spring would start to finally arrive. So, this early summer weather (I’m talking about over +25°c and cloudless skies) is truly something to be treasured. Even though it almost seems like we’ve missed one part of a season in between.
Hi! I wanted to do something different and take you with me for a day. I hope you enjoy! I had such a lovely time yesterday.
Sunday 6th, May
6.00 am Hello sunshine!
My always so nice body clock woke me up at 6 am on a Sunday. Funnily the first thing I noticed was that it was really bright inside. Yes, please and thank you to the sun shining this early! But I really hadn’t had enough sleep, so I about forced the sleep to come back. This has been a bit of a problem lately and yeah, maybe it’s the spring and all the daylight it brings with it, but I haven’t been getting enough sleeping hours. At least not those much-needed deep sleep ones. The result is waking up nearly always tired. So happy though to look at the weather forecast and see that it should be warm and sunny for at least the next ten days. That always gives some extra energy for the days.
How is the spring treating you at the moment? I love the feeling you often get at spring time where you start wanting to clear out everything, to make things feel more simple and fresh. I think it has the most to do with the growing amount of day light. Representing some sort of awakening. At least for me, when the weather starts to become warmer and the sun is out more and more, being inside begins to feel kind of suffocating. What I find really helpful at this time of the year in particular, is to make sure I don’t have too much stuff lying around unused.
I finally got around to clearing out my wardrobe this weekend. It’s been a long time coming, let me tell you. I have a really bad habit of not even using my closet but instead putting clothes on straight from the drying rack. And the same clothes keep cycling from there to being used to laundry and back. What it really shows is that the amount of clothes I use compared to the number that I own, is really small.
My life has come to a point where I’ve started to get frustrated and having some sort of anxiety from only the thought of opening my wardrobe. I think it holds such strange energy to it with all the mixed clothing pieces that it makes me unbalanced. It’s something I just want to get away from. So I’m finally taking charge of the situation and clearing it out. With the intention of making it a space that looks and feels like me.
Welcome to part two of the let’s talk about.. series, where I talk about topics that come up in books I read. This time the book we’re going to be talking about is The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. It is a book that has sold over seven million copies and has been translated into forty languages, needless to say it’s quite wide-spread.
What grabbed my attention in this book enough to order it and then read it, was the fact that it talks about personal freedom. Now, freedom as a concept is something that’s been in the back of my mind for a long time. I’m quite sure I’m not talking only about myself, when I say that feeling trapped or quietened is a common feeling in our lives. It’s become such a normalized feeling though, that I at least have started to accept that freedom is something that can’t be achieved. That it’s something out of our individual hands and minds, something completely out of control.
I’d heard a lot of good things about this book before reading it myself. The ways its message was talked about really sank in me and made an impact in my every day life even before reading the actual book. It brought up a thought of possible strength we have inside of us. Which, at least for me is something that has been a bit lost to be honest. It’s so easy to give in to the sorrow and horribleness that surrounds us when we live in the society that has been built for us.
Time has gone by so quickly, I can’t even quite comprehend. It’s already April! Spring is catching up to us and the anticipation is huge. It’s the best feeling to realize and truly enjoy the growing amount of daylight that we have at the moment. To have moments in the evening when you’re looking outside on a sunny day and it’s still so damn bright at eight o’clock that it almost feels like summer.
So there’s some catching up to do, as in a little life update.
I can’t even remember how many times I’ve gone to a doctor in the past two months. Not to mention the hours I’ve spent in the hospital. About three weeks ago, I had a surgery on my ovaries. It went well and I’m all fine now. But it still was a surgery and the recovery, alongside with about ten things, are something I’ve never experienced before. It’s been a rollercoaster, to say the least.
After being on a sick leave for five weeks in December-January, because of a broken wrist, I thought, taking a break from work and having some time to reflect on your life, is kind of a good thing. Even though the time didn’t come from the best of circumstances. At least it ended up having a great timing, so that I had the possibility to start a new year with a renewed view of strength I had on myself.
This time around thought, I’ve had this time off with a mixture of feelings. I was at work only for a month and a half between these sick leaves and it didn’t really feel like I needed any time to take away from the life I was living. But on the other hand, this has been such a different time compared to the broken wrist situation, because it’s been a slow process (even though it’s gone much quicker than I had thought it would) to be able to move and do normal every day things again. I guess it’s a bit different having one hand off the game than recovering from having your stomach cut open.. I have to say I’ve never quite enjoyed walking outside and watching the nature changing as much I do right now.